Day 5 of the Submissive’s Advent calender, by the submissive guide – The Music.

Hi, hello,hay! Well I’m up early and have hit the road running today! My uncle Fred is watching the babies while I have my English lessons. So I’m getting some help with writing this and get to have a lovely chat with a friend.

Today’s activities focus is Music and how affects you and how it inspires you . The first activity is to sit and listen to music that you love, then think about a few questions . The second is about finding a poem, or quote or single word that inspires you. Keeping it your pocket and thinking about it, and letting it inspire you. I chose the first , as music is a big part of who I am . It can effect my mood, make me smile or cry or laugh or make me horny as hell! I have quit eclectic tastes in music. I love Punk, metal and rock. But I also have a soft spot for rap and country. I will even admit to liking so pop music and even Abba. Not a huge fan of jazz or classical stuff , but they do have their place. but one of the biggest loves I have is for Folk, or should I say Irish Folk music that I was bought up on. No mater what I have going on or how I feel , Irish folk can cheer my soul, calm me down and make me feel grounded. Haha I guess I am more of traditional girl than I thought.

So the thing points:

  • How does music connect you to the world around you? Music is one of the things that can really effect my mood. I use it to help when I’m anxious  to help me stop focusing on the thing that is making me anxious. I can use it when I have a cry stuck, to make me cry. I use upbeat music start my day happy and full of energy. I guess it sort of feeds my soul!
  • Do you have a theme song? The boss man would say ‘right on time’ Cos I always have to be on time for things! but I think it would be ‘don’t take it personally’ by Monica or maybe ‘Savior’ By Destiny’s child. Cos I can be a little grumpy at times and cos I have been through some shitty times .
  • Thinking about when your playing with your partner/s or fantasize about doing so – is the there a play list in your mind? Yes defiantly! For D/s it has to be chilled and calm, with a slow beat and a melody . For fucking it has to be either slow and soft , if it’s romantic. Or if it is more intense or spontaneous , the has To be a stronger , faster beat.
  • Do you have a specific music you love to play to? What are they? why do you think they connect you to the moment? Well not specific songs , but bands like the kings of Leon, green day and nickel back. I think it’s cos they have songs that inspire me to dance and act a little naughty. I can then remember what I did to that song if it comes on the radio and then I get that sort of not in my tummy and blush at the memory of it!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

 

 

#SoSS – Spreading the love!(family style)

Right so yeah we thought we would jump on the Share our Shit Saturday band wagon! (the Boss man, the girls and myself . not the Royal we!) to be honest ive had 3 people give me shout outs in the last 3 weeks and really feel the need of d to share the love for some pretty epic bloggy -woggy- do dah peeps that are out there. (I’m going to point out , I’m not drunk or high , but I’m that tired at the moment and had to deal with dog drama today, that it has fried my brain a little bit! ). So having said that I was going to do this to the girls, they wanted to join in and the French man was like, oh well I’ll have some stuff I wont to big up too! So we are doing a  big old family round-up! What we have done is each pick 3 things / blogs / People we are loving and rambled about why we like them, So here goes!

Maîtriser / Boss man

From Daddy’s Desk, with John Brownstone. – A short video from John Brownstone from the Loving BDSM podcast, on why it’s not cool to use silence as away of punishing a submissive. This gent has articulated my thoughts in a much better way than I could have. as I would have said don’t treat you sub as second class citizen, grow up and stop being a dick! Clear , to the point and highlighting that it can do more harm than good.

Wear and Tear, by Molly Moore, for KOTW – Beautiful piece and stunning photo by Molly Moore of Molly’s daily kisses. Good read, but the best part by far is the picture she took of herself. Getting across how arousing knife play and cutting off of clothes can be!

Anxiety and Events, By the princess of kink, for Kinkcraft. – Now I should say that the Kinkcraft Podcast is in my girls top podcast. Bless them , they will all sit at the kitchen table and listen to Andrew and Pixie , then afterwards they will discuss what they had been talking about and each give their take on it. This article really hit a cord with me as mouse suffers so badly with G.A.D. it gave me more ideas of how to help her and also made me look at things from her view point. So Thank you to all involved!

Babe –

Pink hai don’t care!!! Learning to love myself! – A Post from the wonderful Candysnatch, a blogger who has a great outlook on life and is the epitome of body and sex posativatey . I read this article and past it on to are little bear, who has really bad problems with her body image problems. It has given her a real boost and as a knock on effect we have much happier little bear! So Big thank gouges lady!

Drama in the BDSM comunity , Loving BDSM. This one was kind of said what we all want to say about people bringing drama in to a D/s or kink environment. It really was wicked for people to actually say what we thought , but out loud for a change. lol basically the advise is just to deal with it calmly , talk to people, find your on fit , speak up or to someone as needed , and for everyone to just try the hardest to get the fuck a long! Little Pixie loved this on and she giggled the whole way through, so a Big thank you to Kayla and John! x

Hoilday gift guide 2017. By Coffee and Kink. – Really big thanks for this article. I hate Christmas shopping and I never know what to get people , but this is a fucking awesome guided to what is hot for the kinkies in my life!

Kitten –

Bisexuality, episode 48. Proudtobekinky podcast. -so we all love the Proudtobekinky podcast and when we first listen to this one it was kind of light bulb moment for us all! Floss was speaking for not just her but us too! So many myths got busted in this one podcast. Pixie also listen to this with Aunty May , who said ‘That girls got away with words and talks a lot of sense’ . So if she is saying it’s worth a listen it’s worth a listen!

Bitch. – Beatiful picture of an Irish blogger that we are all a little obsessed with! Great use of colour and lighting, positioning and placement. Sends shiver down my spine. Lace – Sinfull Sunday #344, by Little Switch Bitch.

Southern Sir’s Place, By John Brownstone.  – So we are not really allowed to fallow blogs of other dominates unless the boss man knows them in person. But the is a the odd exception , Sir Beasty is one and  rather new one is Mr John Brownstone. His blog is now one of are favourites. The are great post for Sinful Sunday, Kink of the week and about his life! one of the most funny , sweetest and loving Dom that the is around and on the net!

Little Bear

The complete truth about Daddy Doms and little girls , By Kayla Lords , For KinkCraft. – I’m a little and I love being a little , but I some times feel people think I just act like a child and do it for attention. No I do it cos it is part of who I am and allows me to feel happy, safe and loved. This article by Kayla lords sums everything up so well and is right on the money for me. Thank you Mrs Babygirl!

Sinful Sundaysinful Sunday is one of Molly Moore’s memes . Your given a prompt every month and come up with sexy Picture that you feel fits the prompt or any other sexy pic you want to add. I’m not good at taking pics , but I love looking and reading what others come up with!

Submiisve Guidesubmissive guide is a site I love, its full of all things to do with submission and great ideas. with article and ebooks that you can download and keep. We have got the submissive advent Callender and I can’t wait for it to be time to start it!

Mouse –

Torture Garden Special , Floss does life. when I was younger I used to love go to To TG , but after things went pear-shaped for me I stop going and now my anxiety levels are stopping me from going. Read this piece by floss was like being there myself, she made I sound so really. I could almost feel the beat of the music and see all the bright colours. She has really got it spot on and has got me going I have to make it back to TG next year!

How to picth your idea to website, By the smutancer. Great article by Kayla Lords , aka the smutlancer. All about how to pitch ideas to people and companies. Now I have not use this to pitch writing stuff to kinky peeps yet, but I did use the advice and use it in my none kinky life, selling some article and 4 course idea, so it really does work. Pretty much everything on the smutlancer is super helpful and so easy to understand!

Wicked Wednesday, Reblsnotes.com – Wicked Wednesday is one of my fav writing memes on the net! Great prompts weekly and you can write erotica or a little bit about your real life. Love the feedback you get and the support you get!

Podcast we love and thing everyone should give a listen!(even Great Aunty May agrees)

Loving BDSM

Kinkcraft

Proudtobekinky

The Dildorks

Black People Kink

Cousenually Speaking

Off the cuffs

And lastly ….. My great Aunty May wanted this to be included as she thinks it’s the funniest , best written and most relevent Podcast around at the moment, and that all men and women should listen to it! The Guilty Feminist.

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

Ps this was meant to be posted on Saturday, but I was a bit manic , then on sunday all I did was cry and giggle , then last night but I fell asleep again! So it’s posted on a Tuesday!

His voice. 

I hate working away from home. The 12-hour days spent setting up the class room, the question that I have had to answer a 1000 time before, then the packing away, only to come back and start all over in the morning. The worst part is the drive to the budget chain hotel, to my bland, generic room and a long evening of tv and myself deal with. But tonight is going a little better than most nights, as I have my darling kitten with me, we have permission to play and we have a call from maîtriser to look forward too!
We are under orders to be fed, bathed and in pj’s by the time he calls at 8 pm. So that’s how we come to be perched on the end of the bed, with Kittens phone between us, counting down the seconds till he rings weirdly it’s his voice I miss the most, after the way he feels when I cuddle him. It has the ability to make my do as I’m told one minute, to make me smile the next and wet and horny the next. It can calm, arouses and command all at the same time. His thick French accent, with a hint of Italian and your occasional slip of the tongue that tells of your time spent living in the west country.
Lost in a slight day dream I nearly jump out of my skin when kittens phone starts to blare out his ring tone of ‘all my friends’ By Dermot Kennedy starts to play. I think kitten must have been thinking the same as me, as her sacking hand reaches for the phone and she slide the lock screen and hits the answer button and then speaker. ‘Hello’ she says in a small voice that is very much her being shy and nervous.
Then comes his voice in a thick droll and steady as always, ‘Hello kitten, hello mouse, how are both my little ones? Have you been behaving? Have you been good girls for me?’ It’s with these word that I’m lost, I breath out a sigh I did not know I had been holding in. My shoulder hunch as I relax, letting all the stress of the day go and let the feeling of being safe and love, wash over me. God how I have missed him.
Kitten and I turn to face each other with the phone between us. sitting crossed legged on the bed, tucking feet underneath. We chatter away about what we have been doing and how are days have been. Having turned to face Kitten I feel a little distracted, but then I always do when it comes to Kitten. She is so damn beautiful it takes my breath away. Shifting a little, my knee bumps hers, I look up at her big brown eyes and blush. ‘So how did your course go little mouse?’ I hear coming from the phone, but It barely registers in my fuddled little brain.
‘hmmmm. Yes, what was that’. which is met with a shocked look on kitten’s face and stony silence from the other end of the line. Then clearing of his throat and ‘Mouse what did I just ask you?’. I panic and try I recall what he said, but I just can’t. I know not to umm or ahhh about thing or try to stall when asked something. So, I chose to fess up.
‘I don’t know, I was too busy looking at Kitten and thinking about doing stuff to her’. Blushing like flip and looking down at my lap. Again, I hear him clearing his throat and then a chuckles ‘what a sort of things mouse? Were they naughty things? Have they made you wet little one? Kitten be a good girl and check for me.’
She is up on her knees and moving towards in an instant. She pushes me back on the bed, her hand pulling my panties to the side, slipping inside, and plunging in to me. slowly running her cold finger up and down, then circling my clit. As quickly as she started her check, she abruptly removes finger, and brings it up to her mouth. ‘she is wet maîtriser, she smells yummy. please can I taste her maîtriser?’
‘As you asked so nicely, yes you may Kitten, but listen to me, I want to hear you make her moan and whipper, and then when I tell you Ruin her for me kitten. Do you understand? ‘ . I move myself up the bed, pulling me t-shirt off and hooking my thumbs in the waist band of my panties, dragging them down over my hips. Kitten is on her knees and curling up the bed towards me, the look in her eyes makes me whipper. I hear maîtriser chuckle and the sound of a zip being pulled down. Oh, dear god now I know what he’s doing at the other end of the line. I have blinding vision of him stroking his cock.
Next thing I know kitten is between my legs, having pulled my panties all the way off and tossing them on the floor. Maîtriser tells her to go slow, teasing, and gentle. His gentle tone is telling me to play with my nipple rings, to lose myself in the feeling and that I can stroke my kitten if I want. My eyes close and I just feel. her fingers, her tongue and the sound of maîtriser voice, its start to become a growl. His close, I can picture his hand moving faster and feel his grip become firmer.
Kitten has reached my clit and is lapping at it like her namesake. then I hear the words ‘Now kitten, make her come now!’ That’s when she sucks my clit between her teeth, biting lightly and pushing her tongue flat against my clit. I can’t keep it in any longer, I come undone, scream out her name and then all feel is bliss. I hear grunts coming and the throaty growl.
When I come down of the celling, when my breathing calms, I looked down and see kitten kneeled between my legs, a happy smile on her lips, then her tongue licks the moisture from her lips. A muffled noise breaks the silence. We sit up looking for kitten’s phone, that has become tangled up in the sheets and pillows.
‘that’s my good kitten, well done little one’ comes the voice on the other end. ‘Good girl mouse, you sound so beautiful when you come’ Smiling from ear to ear I roll on to my tummy and kiss kitten. I can taste myself on her lips. Then I hear ‘now mouse I want you to return the favour to kitten, and then I want you to turn the lights out and go to sleep, do you understand’
‘Yes maîtriser, we do.’ We say in unison. A reply of ‘good girls, Good night my sweet little ones’
‘Good night maîtriser, we love you’ we say. Then we hang up and I turn to kitten and promptly return the favour.

Wicked Wednesday

The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.

The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.
I have never really had a great love of what I see when I look in the mirror. I never liked how I looked growing up as a kid. I was small and scrawny as little kid. I had thick glasses, red frizzy hair, thick glasses and a tiny up turned pig nose. Then at the age of 9 need to take steroids for health problems and I put on weight. I was bullied badly at school and at home, by my mother and her father. When I turn 13 a grow about 5 inches in a year and I start to train at a boxing club with my dad. I lost weight, gained muscle and attitude. I chose to fight back at the bullies and the world. but this led to me getting kicked out of school for being a ‘troubled ‘kid.
Fast forward a to a few years ago and you see a girl whose self-esteem is rock bottom, who hides herself away. My body was covered in scares from years of self harm and tattoos from my years of angry rebellion against a harsh world. Stretch mark from rapped weight gain and then weight loss. Add more scares from chest drains from ill health and miss shaped bits from bike accidents and broken bits from my beatings from my ex. So, when my darling Maîtriser came in to my life a few years ago, one of the First things he wanted me to work on was my, in his view titled perception of my body. He said he wanted to me to see myself the way he and the rest of the world saw me, and not how my broken brain saw myself.
So, with therapy, gym workouts and time and love, I started to work on my self-esteem and started to challenge how I saw myself. One of the things I did and still do from time to time is put myself down. I will say something like I hate my face or I’m so fat. This upsets maîtriser, he says it’s like me saying that he is not right that I am worth him loving. At first, I was not sure I was worthy, but as the days went on and I feel increasingly in love and I learned to trust again, I saw that he was right. So, I tried to stop, but I still slipped from time to time.
As a sort of punishment and sort of his way of challenging this, he would for ever put down I made about myself I would have to come up with 10 things I liked about the way I looked. Having just had twins, the put downs have come to the surface again. So, when I said, ‘lord my face looks so chubby’ I was made to stand in front of the mirror again and make my list of 10 things I like, here is what I found
1. I love the colour of my eyes and how they seem to change with my mood.
2. I like my small pug nose and how it’s too small to keep my glasses on when I sneeze.
3. I love my high cheek bones and dimples.
4. I love my Hight. Just right that I can rest my head on maîtriser shoulder when we dance.
5. I love my small hands, that are strong and know how to do so many things.
6. I love my boobs and nipples, and the amazing feeling I get when they are played with.
7. I love the stretch marks on my tummy and hips. Reminds me of caring my babies.
8. I like the scares on rib cage. They remind me of the strength it took to fight back from illness
9. I like the scare on my left for arm. It makes me think that, given time scares fade, if not always leave you totally
10. I love the tan line on my ring finger, reminds me of being married to maîtriser and how special are bond is.
I don’t think I’m ever going to the type of person who is going to spend hours looking in the mirror. But I have learned to like what I see and realised that if maîtriser is happy and loves what he sees, then so should I, cos he is a man who is rarely wrong about stuff like that.

I really loved writing this and I feel like it was something I needed to do, without knowing I did. Does that make sense? I wrote today at a coffee shop, while my little ones dozed in their pram and the rest of the world went about their business. For now my life is good, happy and settled.

Pixie x x x x

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Dairy 16/10/17 – 22/10/17.

Diary: Mouse
Monday 16th October 2017: 5.45am – Well I have to say waking up in my own, with the girls and with you is the best feeling ever! So, I’m getting up and having breakfast.
6.30am – I’m dressed, had breakfast and meds and neb done. Can I go feed the girls now please???
7am – squeak! The girls can have a bath I a bit! Thank you for feeding Evie and burping Connie, Evie is not quite getting the boobie yet! And shush about my boobies and wanting to tie me up, not for a bit big man!
8.30am – Bath time. Be still my heart, I have never seen a man look so frightened of doing something wrong. Connie looks tiny in your hands.
9am – So home and house mouse time! Little bear is such a good girl, she has put the washing on and the dishwasher!
10am – Ok so I’m doing my own meds for the week…. Breath mouse, breath….
11.15am – back to feed the girls and have cuddles! Love you Frenchie.
12.45pm – Please, please, please stop sing Justine Bieber songs at the babies, they are starting to like them! Can’t you do something metal or rock? Country or punk? People are going to think were weird or something!
1pm – fettucine Alfaro, from starch, I’m so impressed!
1.30pm – Nap time! (and story and cuddles!)
2.45pm – Off to do feeds and cuddles. Blimey, I will be glad to get them home so it’s a wee bit less chaotic!
4pm- Dog walking! Dear god have I missed being able to do this and not get puffed out after a km!
5.15pm – Little bear and Babe cooking dinner together for the first time ever. Was awesome and Babe letting little bear boss her round a little was a nice touch! (was that your idea?)
6pm – Last feed of the day and just think they will be home this time tomorrow!
8pm- tired and needy! Bath, snack, and bed.
9.15pm – Can we go and get the girls tonight?!? Please?!?!?
12.10am – ok so I feel sleepies, but it’s tomorrow so we can go get the girls 
1am – pain killers and sleeping pill is needed! Love you x
Tuesday 17th October 2017: 8am- Ok so I slept well, thank you for taking charge and making me take meds. I admit I was being stubborn and I’m very sorry. So, can we go get the girls now???
9am – Ok I made a pig of myself, but that is the best breakfast ever! Porridge with bananas and honey, fruit toast and 3 figs with yoghurt and nuts! Can we go now?!?
10am – kitchen clean, bathrooms blitz, and dinner in the slow cooker. Can I at least pop the stuff in the car?!?
10.30am – YAY! Thank you for saying we can go get them!
11am – This is really real!!!
11.30 – Way to make your wife cry! How did you get NICU graduate t-shirts and the unicorn car set cosy’s??? I must say thank you to Kitten as well, leggings and zip up hoddies, in different purples. I have the most style savvy babies!
12.45 – baby briefing done and home we go! Ekk!
1pm – They are home!!! So yeah, I’m taking them on a guided of the house and introducing them to the dogs!
2pm – Ok I’m going to level with you Frenchie, being sat on the bed, feeding the girls and just looking after my tiny little humans is just the most amazing feeling ever and I feel like it’s just what I was meant to do.
2.30pm – Babies are sleeping and I’m meant to be napping , but I’m sat watching them!
4pm – Ok so I was tired, but waking and the babies not being there freaked me out! Come downstairs to find you dancing round the kitchen with them , while cooking dinner , fucking priceless 
5pm – Girls are all home from work , I get to cook with you and the girls are getting cuddles from everyone. Babe has even asked to give them their feed 
6pm – cripes I think we may have made too much food!
6.15pm – aww you knew Steve was coming, round, didn’t you?!?!
7.30pm – aww Steve looks big and burley most of the time, cuddled up with the girls he looks all little and cute!
9pm – feeding times, nappy change and down for the night. Now time for a shower, snacks and meds and bedtime!
11.20pm – umm why is little bear cuddling Evie and holding a hole conversation with her?
2am – So this will no doubt get old, but first ever night feed! For some reason Bella, mad eye and spidie seem to think I need their help!
Wednesday 18th October 2017: 6am- Early morning feeds done, breakfast and meds and neb done! I’m dressed and ready for the day!
8am – Girls bathed, dressed and down for a morning nap! Now it is time for house work and time for you to go do some work buster! *Bossy Dommy wife stare*
11.15 – Bedroom blitzed, sheets changed, dirty sheets washed and hung out. upstairs vacuumed, dusted and wood work cleaned. Bottle serialised and made up. Silly as this will sound but I recklessly happy to be able to clean my house again!
11.30 – Feeding, burping and bums done!
12.15 – ummm your making linguini Alfaro for lunch, what do you want?!
12.40pm- Dear god that was lush! Can we have cuddles and read on the sofa!
1.20pm pm – Well if you will read me filth, you will get blow jobs!
1.30pm – Your taking the girls to work with you?!?! that is so cute! But thank for this, means I can sit down and do the course content and finish that article. X
3pm- So taking the girls to work is code for having a chat and a cuddle with them does it!
3.15pm – Dinner is on, pudding is made and I’m now going to take my nap!
4.20pm – can I have my babies back now please? They need feeding and I need cuddles!!!
5.30pm – why does everyone arrive home at the same time? But it is bliss having you all home! Kitten and Little bear look like nutters dancing with babies, but hay I don’t judge. Thank you for kicking back and having a beer with babe, I know she loves teaching but something has gotten her worked up and I worry she is bottling stuff up!
6.50pm -That was good food! Time to put the girls down and then get ready for bake off!
7.30pm – I cannot tell you how nice it is to be able to have a bath on my own with the door shut and not have to worry that I’m going to get stuck in the bath!
8pm – Bake off! Can I get a pocket-sized Noël fielding please?
10.20pm – I was checking for light leaks not sleeping: P. but yes, I will do the girls and go to bed!
11pm – Bed time story, lights out and cuddles, thank you x
2am – night feed done and bum clean! Again, the dogs seem to think the girls need a guard of houner or something!
Thursday 19th October 2017: 5am – I think Connie takes after me for her love of early mornings, food, and cuddles while the sun comes up! Evie is like you and grumpy if I wake her up early, but like me for fulling asleep half way through things!
6am – breakfast with the girls! Have not done this in weeks and it is sooooo good! It is made all that much better that are numbers have go to 6 now!
7am- Time to get me and the girls ready for the day, as Aunty May will be here at 8.30. Little bear is very excited about a day of clean and tiding!
8.20am- can you please stop copping a feel of my boobies please! Girl bath and down for a nap, Dressed and meds and neb done. Tea made and wish me luck!
8.45am – tea drunk and let the house cleaning begin!
11.30 – Holy crap almighty! I had forgotten what it feels like to clean with aunty may watching! Upside is that I fed the girls and she took over burping and bums!
12.15pm – Family lunch. Blimey we get through a lot of bread with soup 
2pm – ok I admit it I love watching the girls sleep and I need my afternoon nap still!
4pm – Got to love when May cooks dinner! I get to play with the girls and the dogs. #spoiltmadam
5pm – your all home early! So, what do we do, play Cluedo, we are that rock and roll!
6pm – I put it to you that home cooked food is better than 90% of stuff you can but while out!
6.45pm – Babies and I are going to take a shower and put are jamies on, cos we can!
7.10pm – girls down! Thank you for taking may home. now let’s do this games night thing then!
9.15pm – You are such a sore loser! We beat you fair and square, just cos I chose to make out with kitten does not mean we cheated: P
10pm – fed, burping and bums done. Kitten and I are turning in for the night, I’m cream crackered!
11pm – story, cuddles and lights out!
2.30am – Love you so much for doing night feed! X x
Friday 20th October 2017: 5.45am – So that was the best night sleep in ages! Thank you so much for making me stay in bed! Girls are super hungry today. Thought I was going to lose a nipple!
6.30am – yup I love figs and honey and will give blow jibs for them! Hell, I would beg for them, hell how am I kidding I beg for anything if your involved!
8.30am – Up dressed, breakfast, meds and neb done. Babies bathed, dress and awake! Why am I so nerves about the midwife coming??
9am – midwife is on time, so that is a first! Girls are doing fine. Connie is dead on 5lbs and little miss Evelyn is up 4lb 9, so super proud of my girls! I’m healing up well, but got a lecture about pushing myself to hard 
9.45am – So I am going to attempt to walk to the shop and back with the girls!
10.20am – Ok so not doing as well as I thought, close to a panic attack  I am going to take a bit of time and have a rest. Tired now!
11am- Fed, burped and clean bums! Must get Babe chocolate for her feeding chart!
12.15pm – Ok I could very much get used to having you popping in for lunch! Oh, and getting me tacos!!!
1.15pm – Yup you get afternoon blow jobs if you are working from home! 😉
3pm- feeding, burping bum cleaning done! Now having a nap, again!
5pm – oh bless Babe waking me up with a kiss on the nose!
5.30pm – I love Babe’s idea of cooking dinner, Fish, and Chips!
7pm- ok now I’m so shocked, I never thought the girls would fight over changing a poopy nappy!
9pm- Hehehe, we beat you at monopoly again!
9.50pm – I swear Connie just cries so she gets cuddled!
10.30pm – bottle, burps and bums done! And so, to bed. x
1.15am – Boobie, burps and bums done!
Saturday 21st October 2017: 7.30am- who…. What…. Where…. . Thank you for letting me sleep in and doing the whole of the morning thing, love you froggie x x x . Also, just so you know the girls love their daddy very much too!
8am – I’m up, dressed, eating breakfast, and doing my meds and neb. Kitten is making me go in to town with the babies and her, cos I need to get out the house and not let my anxiety level build up too much. Terrified, but going to do it. *determined look*
9am – Ok so bag packed, girls tucked up warm, comfortable shoe on, anxiety meds taken and off we go.
11am- I did it! So proud of me and Kitten knows best! On a flipside, I think people must think me and kitten are a couple, cos we keep hugging and kissing. I love that.
11.15 – First time breast feeding in public. No dirty looks or fuss. No need for an apron or fancy get up just used the scarf you got me. thank you, hang up got over!
1pm – Ok we are getting the bus home!
1.25pm – Did it, I’m doing well today!
2pm – late lunch, again thank you!
3pm – off to the super market, please let the girls be ok!
5 pm – oh lord, now I remember why I hate the feck super market on Saturday!
6pm- thank you for asking Steve to dinner I was really worried about him.
7.30pm – I have missed curry night! Girls are tucked up.
10.35 – last feed and now to bed!
12am – I can’t sleep 
2am- getting up cos I really can’t sleep.
2.15am – Hell, what the flip is with the dogs?!?! Mad eye has now decided that I can’t hear the girls crying and must come get me when they do! It’s very off putting to be woofed at by the sheath dog!
Sunday 22nd of October 2017: 6am – so yes, no sleep, feel like crap, need food and strong tea. Thank you for doing the girls morning feed and bath, it is going to take a lot to get this pixie ready for mass!
7.30am – You didn’t have to make me breakfast, get me in the shower or pick my cloths out. But thank you, it is such a help! I’m now going to power nap till a little before 10, like you said to!
9.50am – Smooches to babe for sorting me out. Tea, makeup, and hair done!
10.30am – Well here goes mass with two tiny babies!
12pm- Oh my god Father Michael is epic! Cuddling Evie, the whole first half was wicked!
1pm – pub lunch!
3pm – Home and power nap time! Zzzzzzzzzz
5pm – Why the feck do I have 17 potential client emails and one from &($%! Asking me to host and run 3 courses in December? I’m on maternity leave!
6pm – Beans on toast for tea, thank you! I could not have eaten proper grown up food.
7.30pm – Bath time.
8.30pm – So yeah, I now fall asleep in the bath. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
10pm feed done, bums done, babies asleep, Little mama to bed and sleep. Zzzzzzzzzzzz
3am – dear god, never has 5 hours sleep felt so good! Mad eye came and got me to sort the girls out, again! Is he after extra sweet? Or does he think the are some weird human looking puppies? Anyway boobie, burped and bums done! I am now going back to sleep!

So that was last week and my first week of motherhood done and dusted! how was all of your weeks?

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

 

Dance.

I draw the blinds, turn down the lights and pull a chair into the middle of the room. I pour a glass of wine, placing it on the table next to the chair. I find the right track on the Ipod and have it ready to play as soon as I hear your hand on the door knob. I check myself in the mirror one last time, adjusting my bra strap , smoothing my hair down and reapplying my deep red lipstick. Then I knee alt the side of your chair and wait.

After a few short minuets , that seem to go on for hours, I hear your car on the gravel outside. The door slamming , the beep of the central locking and then the crunch of gravel under foot.. Then the key in the front door, you foot steps coming down the hall and then so slowly it’s almost painful the knob of the door turns and the door opens.. I don’t look up, I stare straight ahead with lowered eyes, just the way you trained me, just the way you want me.

you walk over to the chair, looking down at me, you utter ‘whats this then little one? What are you up to mouse? I don’t remember saying I wanted you like this when I got home this morning, did I.’ Poursing for a moment, then you say in a firmer tone ‘ girl , look at me when I ask you something, what is this all about?’

painfully slowly , I raise my eyes to meet yours . Licking my lip and swallowing , my mouth having gone suddenly dry. I manage to get the words out in a husky and a hell of lot stronger than I feel, ‘I wanted to dance for you  ,maîtriser please let me dance for you?’ . I stare up at you with pleading eyes from the hard wood floor , that has started hurt my knees.

the heat of your gaze makes me sweat and my insiders squirm, waiting with hope and a lot more patience that I thought I would ever have. You reach down , you hand going in to my hair and I feel a none to gentle tug that brings me to my feet. You hand fastens round my neck , forcing my chin up and me to look in to your eyes. I shiver as a cold chill travels down my spin and I try to step back. You only pull harder and bring you mouth down on mine in a deep , possessive, hurried kiss. Letting go suddenly , in a near growl , you tell me ‘as you wish little one ‘ . Turning from me to sit in the chair , reach for the glass of wine and taking a deep swallow.

i sorter of to iPod , make sure I add in a little extra sway to my hips as I go. I turn my head and look over my shoulder at , with a coy smile, that I hope has the right amount of sexy in it. I turn to the iPod once again and hit play, no slow ranchy song or pumping, bump and grind for this dance, oh no. It is the heavy guitar and for full grit tones of kings of Leon for this girl.

As I turn to face you , I slowly sway my hips in time with music, reaching round I undo the clip holding my hair. Shaking out my red curls as I move closer to you , the smell of the sweet cinnamon and honey shampoo , closing my eyes, I take a deep breath and run my fingers from the roots to the ends , bundling the length over my shoulder. I trace my fingers down my checks , across lips, down my neck , tracing my collar , to the slopes of my breasts. I then turn my self so my back is to you, slowly undoing the tiny buttons on the front of my dress , I turn back to face , swaying and grinding my body in time to the music. with shaking fingers I push open the front of my dress and roll my shoulders , so the dress slips down to my waist , exposing my small creamy white breast, encased in your favoiut black lace bra.

I run my hand the sides of my breast , down the sides of my body, leave goosebumps in the wake. I reach my hips and my dress, I hook my thumbs in the sides and gentle shimmy out of it. being careful not to get the silk and lace of my dress court up on the heel of red patent leather pumps. I’m left standing in front of you in black lace bra, matching boy shorts and heels. I sway and strut closer to you , I’m so close now you can reach out a touch if you want. ‘ loose the shoes , sweetheart’ I hear you say .

So I turn my back to you, bending at the waist, and sticking my but in your groin. I unsnap the straps on my shoes, removing them and placing to the side of table. Then i feel your hands on my butt, as I Straighten up. Your fingers glide up the side of my body tracing the under side of my breast, your hands travel round to the clasp of my bra , with a well-practiced flick of your finger it undone. You gently turn me round and encourage me to carry on my slow dance, but at the same time you push the straps down my arms and pull the cups away, leaving my aching breasts and rock hard nipples on full display, less than a foot from you mouth.

Seeing the bulge in your trousers , I move nearer to you placing one Of my toned legs , between yours. I unfasten your tie and with shaking fingers I undo the buttons on you shirt , pulling free the hem from you waste band. I place one hand behind your neck and use the other spread your shirt wide open . I rise up and boldly thrust me breast in your face. Your catch a nipple in your mouth, sucking at first , then biting down on the over sensitive tip. Straddle you lap , rocking and grinding hard and slowly, felling you grow harder and more swollen as I go.

You hands are now rubbing against my lips , through the lace of my panties . Suddenly you urge me to stand , and hook you thumbs in the waist band, pulling them in one swift motion over my hips and to the ground . You growl ‘dance girl, my little cock tease a’ as you stand kicking your shoes of  , along with you socks.

Turn round I hear you moan, as I do so I hear the fly of you trousers being pulled down followed by the soft Humph of them being tossed to the side. I hear you pick up you wine, gulping it down in one and placing the glass back. All the time I keep up my slow, swaying dance then I feel you behind me , pulling me close , you cock nestling between the checks of my bum. I feel you loop you tie round my wrist, pulling my arms up and around your neck. I fell you roughly kissing my neck , your hands making a beeline for my pussy. Your fingers plunge in to my already wet cunt, you plunge them in side my hitting my g-spot , tofu thumb is on my clit , pushing hard in  firm circles .

Gasping and moaning , I beg to be load to come, your growl in my ear ‘ now girl, come now’ as you use a come hither motion on my g-spot. My knees buckle , as juices gush out of me , covering you hand, my thighs and hitting the floor. But you’re not going to let me rest are you, oh no. Your pushing me to my knees, forcing my head down in to the hard floor, your hand firmly on my neck. Next I feel you falling to knees behind pushing my legs wide apart. You use you hands to Guide you ramrod hard cock in to my tight whole. A feeling that always feels like your going to spilt me in two. Next you grab my tie bound hands and using them to pull me in to wide legged kneeling position. One hand pulls my waist and hips tight to your groan . The other pushes the hair away from my neck , so you can lick, suck and bite my neck and shoulders.

Now you push me forward again , face firmly planted on the ground, oh and your really fucking me. All the frustration of you hard-working week, the traffic jams and every ting thing that has been poured in to this. I begged to come and you give me permission to come all I want, but you don’t give in to your relieve yourself. I most of come 6 time before I feel your breathing and stroke changed. You push me down harder by my neck , and roar as you empty yourself into me, over and over.

You slum over my used little body and catch your breath. I whisper in a small voice ,’did you like your Dance maîtriser? Did I do a good job ? ‘

Gathering me in to you sweaty embrace  and whispering in my ear ‘ yes little mouse you danced beautifully for me, as you always do., I’m very proud of you,’ pulling tight to you chess’s , you clam my mouth with yours in a loving kiss and I feel you cock springing to life again. Something tells me it’s time for the next dance!

Masturbation Monday.

 

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Question time with the girls….and Team Kinkcraft!

Well this week for question time with me and the girls is not one but two awesome kinksters! None other than the awesome Andrew and Pixie from the fab Kinkcraft .  Not only do they make , sell and teach people to make awesome kinky toys. They also design and make some of the best plus sized latex I have ever seen! Add to this their awesome Podcast , that is informative and current . So go forth and give them a listen or have a look at their site! (I am getting the linked cuffs kit for my birthday!) want to say a hue thanks to them both for doing this! here is their Question time!

 

Question time with the girls …. And Team Kink Craft!
Describe yourself in 10 words? (Babe)
Andrew: calm, geeky, intelligent patient, funny
Pixie: Short, opinionated, sarcastic, caring, huggable

What do you do for fun away from your everyday life? (Kitten)
One of the most fun things we do is getting out and meeting the bloggers we work with and talk to on twitter. They are an amazing bunch and they are always such a laugh to be with.

Which 5 books have made the biggest impact on you and why? (Mouse)
This is really hard to answer. We both love books but it is hard to narrow it down to books that have had an impact.

 

If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with your spare time? (little bear)
What is sleep and what is spare time?

What are your top 5 pet peeves about society today? (all)
Donny J – Our name for President Trump
The general intolerance of others (Racism, Homophobia, Nazis, etc)
Rudeness – It comes in so many forms from the people on the street, to companies who just don’t seem to care about their customers
Celebrity culture – It is hard to idolise people who seem to have done no good in the world.
Government posturing – There seems to be a lack of care for governments own people at the moment, it’s depressing.

What is the worst job you have ever had and why? (little bear)
Andrew: Working in a shoe shop – playing around all day with people’s feet have put me off them forever.
Pixie: Putting tickets in numerical order – It was the most mind numbing job I have ever done.. I left after a single day and never went back.

What is your kinky skill set? (mouse)
Making kinky toys

What is your idea of a perfect day? (Kitten)
Andrew: Staying in bed till well after midday
Pixie: Good food, good wine, good company

What 5 things could you not live without and why? (Babe)
Internet – You don’t want to see Pixie without the Internet
Chocolate – A world without chocolate isn’t worth living in
Friends – Because good people are hard to find
Sense of humor – because without that what do we have?
Books – I listen to a lot of books about so many things

Tell us how Kink craft came to life? (ALL)
It was a crazy idea I had been thinking about, why can’t people make their own toys? On the whole they are not that hard to do so why aren’t people making their own?

It just so happened Pixie had the skills to make that possible so we thought why not give it a shot.

Silly Questions from little bear (feel free to not answer them)
What do you prefer ice-cream wise?
Andrew: Mint-choc-chip
Pixie: Mainly chocolate but I like to mix it up now and then
Grilled cheese sandwich or bacon sandwich?
Andrew: Bacon sandwich with brown sauce of course
Pixie: Grilled cheese
What is your normal bed time?
Andrew: about 2am most days
Pixie: about the same
What is the best time of day for sex?
Any time
Heals, kitten heals or ballet pumps?
Andrew: None of them do my legs any justice 😛
Pixie: Heels to give me height

Thanks again guys!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x