Pixie’s Prompt – three questions, 300 words.

Pixie’s Prompt – three questions, 300 words.
Answer the 3 questions in 300 words or less, but giving reasoned answer.

1) An important person in your life: My Great Aunty May. Simply because she is an amazing woman. Strong minded, open, and clever. She has taught me some many things about being who I am. She is a feisty lady, who is farce and brave, even when she’s not. But the thing I love about her the most is the fact she has been there every step of the way of my recovery. From hospital, to coming home, to remarrying and becoming a mum, she ha been there. Oh, and she can tell the boss man what to do!

2) A thing your life has in excess: Love, my life is full of love. Whether that is giving love, being loved, or feeling love. Some many different types of love. For friends, lovers, family, or my babies. I never thought it was possible to feel this much love and I’m a very blessed lady to have this amount of love in my life.

 

3) How you procrastinate: Well I don’t really! No, I do, but I also must have a lot of structure in my days, or I feel very stressed and like I’m just waiting time. That would then make me panicky and anxious and no one wants that. I guess I do like Pinterest and twitter quite a lot. I also enjoy stripping down to my panties and a t-shirt, turning up the music and dancing round the kitchen. Also, a big fan of taking long baths and naps. But then I am also happy to spend the day writing or to clean for a few hours. For me life is about balance and priorities.

See i can write something in under 300 words!

Hugs,

Pixie

Days 15 and 16 of the submissive’s advent calendar , by submissive guide – our needs reclaimed and the prayer.

Evening all you lovely little kinster! How are all doing this fine Saturday afternoon? what have you been up to? one day someone will actually go ‘ well pixie, today I’ve done XY, & z ‘ But hay hum.

Now before I get started on my daily ramble, I am under orders to make a small confession, cos maîtriser thinks it’s something that should be in the open. I think it makes me look like I’m moaning and people will get sick and tired of hearing me wine on about my health and stuff like that. But being a good girl, I’m doing what he asked, even though I don’t want to d: . I have for the last 10 days been trying to fight off a chest infection. I’m fighting it with help of antibiotics, steroids and extra nbs, and I’m bloody well winning. I didn’t say any thing cos , well I have had some people have digs about me always being sick. The truth is I do get sick a lot and I will always get sick a lot. I try my hardest to sat as healthy as I can, but some times it gets too much and I wind up needing to go in to hospital, which is hard, stressful and upsetting , for myself and the whole of my family. With babies now it has become terrifying , so I’m fighting even harder to get well and stay that way. But I  have also got to a point in my life that I am sick to the back teeth of being told to go fight being sick nice and quietly in a corner , so I don’t upset the nice people. I did that for years with me mother and then my ex, and having to hide something that is a fucking huge part of my life , is actually fucking my mental health over. so yeah , I’m sick, I’m fighting it ,no I want to hide it, no I don’t want you to feel sorry for me , but I do want people to know and respect me! Rant over !!

So now back to yesterdays actuates . the focus was me needs and wants as a submissive . With Christmas fast approaching ,  me needs can more than usable . the first activity started with sitting and make a short list of my current needs, my needs right now. the actual activaty was to make a bunting , to go up in a room in your house , and write on the back one of your bunting and then if the are some not being met , talk to your partner about how they can be met. the second was a simple hot chocolate , to sit down and take 15 mins of me time with a cup of hot chocolate. I had some down time yesterday so I sort of did them both, just slightly different.

For the bunting , I adapted it slightly . I have been making bunting to go over the cots in the twins room. So after I sat down and made my list of needs , instead of writing them on  the back , I carefully stitched the pieces of paper to the back to the bunting. then I got Babe to put them up for me for me, cos I’m not allowed to stand on chairs or ladders.. Then I sat and talked to my partners ( I love saying that) . Now what came to light is that I’m a really lucky girl cos nearly all of them were being met. I had 3 that I felt could be worked on or stuff that could be tweaked. Firstly I wanted more cuddles and kisses, will sound silly but we have all been working silly hours and I just wanted some physical affection. So we have all made time today to cuddle a bit and remember good bye and welcome home kisses! second was my want to start pushing myself harder to get back in shape. This was met with coition. After having twins and a C-section , I’m not allowed to push to hard. but we have agreed that I can do more swimming and up my daily step count. Lastly the was my want to do something with my brain and may do some form of study. well we have agreed that I can up my English lessons, the boss man is going to set me more writing task and today I have signed up to not only my creative writing class , but to do a physics class too! For the second one   maîtriser made me hot almond milk with honey and let sit with my jerboas  for 20 minutes . well I was supposed to mental , but ended plotting out a story!

So on to today’s focus was on prayer and how it can be used to focus the mind. The first activity gave you a ‘Submissive’s Prayer ‘ that has done the rounds on the internet, and to sit and think about it and practice focusing you mind, The second was to write your own prayer or at least have ago. I was feel sick and run down so I did the first activity . This is the submissive prayer we used.

prayer

I have for most of my adult life found prayer a very great way to calm my mind and to reflect on things. So this was a great way to do just that. I spent a lovely quiet 10 minutes just sat , thinking about the word and what they mean to me. after I had finished I felt so relaxed that the boss man-made me go take a nap!

Well that was 15 and 16 , I wonder what 17 holds for us!

Hugs,

pixie x

Day 8 & 9 of the Submissive’s advent calendar, by submissive guide – Time to receive and joy in accomplishment.

So, I’m working this weekend and the end of last week was super busy, so last night I chose to sleep instead of blogging! (Self-care at its most basic). But I did yesterdays activates and I sat down and did today’s and wrote this while having my lunch. I got lucky and could take the babies to work with me and the has been a que of people wanting cuddles, some much so I had a 45-min lunch and nothing to do, so I chose to write!
Yesterday activity focus was receiving a complement and excepting it with grace. Now it echoed a lot of stuff that maître has me working on. He and the writer of the calendar made the point that most people do not give a complement wanting something in return. Also, that by saying, that they are just saying it or that someone could do better than you, are putting not only yourself down and the person giving the complement down too! The first activity was to accept complements for the day and do it with a smile and a thank you. The second was to complement yourself through-out the day. I liked the first second one, but maître liked the first, so I did a combination of both!
It was hard for me to keep telling myself I was doing good, as I really struggle with my self-esteem and my sense of self-worth at times. So, I took it slowly and steady. I chose to focus on the things that I feel I’m good at. Like looking after the babies, house work and being a good friend. The later kind of inspired me to sit down and write to a couple of friends, and I told myself that I would make people happy by doing that. I gave my living room and kitchen a good clean, telling myself I was doing a good job and that I was proud of me. I also congratulated myself for making beautiful babies. Now the tough part for me was accepting a complement, without thinking the persona wanted something. But I did it! A friend on twitter said that I was doing well, that I brightened her day and make her smile every day, So I took it and said thank you! My English teacher told me that he is amazed at how much better my spelling is, and again I said thank you and smiled. Then when maître said I looked pretty, I smiled, hugged, and hid a blushing face in his chest!
Today focus was on what I have accomplished this year and celebrating it. The first activity was to sit and make a list of all the things that I have accomplished this year. The second was to sit and think about what I have achieved this year and then think of a way to celebrate it. As I’m at work and a little pushed for time, I chose the second task.
The biggest thing that I have achieved this year is having the twins. For a very long time I thought that I could not have kids, and I told myself I was happy with that, but deep down it killed me. I did want to them very much, so when last year I got engaged, I kind of broke down the whole kid’s thing can be tumbling out my little head. We decided that if I could not get pregnant we would be looking in to adopting, but we also decided that I would come off the pill and see what happened. Well fast forward to now and I have ended up with 2 screaming bundles of joy, that I love more than life itself! Becoming a mum has been amazing for me. It seems to of made it easier for me to deal with life and given me a sense of worth that I have never had before. So, I decided that I should do something to celebrate that, so I phoned the boss man and asked if I could next week go to the baby flick at my local cinema with my great Uncle Fred, and got the thumbs up!

So that is the last 2 days, lets see what tomorrow brings shall we?

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

 

Day 3 of the submissive guides advent calendar for submissives – The wise words.

So today on are submissive advent calendar Words of wisdom that we have been given, found , or stumbled upon in are journey through life or in submission. how they have inspired us and stayed with us over time. The were 2 activities to day. The first was to sit and spend 5 minutes thinking of all the wise words you have received over the years. thinking about how the effect you and why they have stuck with you. The second was to take these wise words and turn them in to a holly bundle Christmas decoration. As much as I wanted to make the holly bundles , we have had a really busy day . We all went to mass , went a bought the last bits of are Christmas decorations , had a Lego building marathon , homework and babies to care for, so we did the first.

It was actually a really awesome way to spend 15 minutes of quiet time. I got to sit with a cup of tea, reflecting on the past and how it has shaped me as a submissive. we as a family , well us girls chose to kind of build on the idea , by listing them and chatting about while we cooked dinner. what was amazing , well I think was how we all had listed advice that we had got from each other and how they had affect us!

some of the words of wisdom I listed.

  • breath , just breath. keep moving forward, take baby steps if you have to but just keep moving, and just breath.
  • What make you weird and different , is you greatest strength.
  • in submission I find power.
  • It’s ok to not be ok all of the time.
  • The is nothing wrong with a good girl having a naughty side.
  • Love should never hurt , unless you want it to.
  • Don’t let the bastards grind you down.
  • Never under-estimate the power of a coy smile and shy eyes.

Well that was todays, cant wait to see what tomorrow brings!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

#SoSS – Spreading the love!(family style)

Right so yeah we thought we would jump on the Share our Shit Saturday band wagon! (the Boss man, the girls and myself . not the Royal we!) to be honest ive had 3 people give me shout outs in the last 3 weeks and really feel the need of d to share the love for some pretty epic bloggy -woggy- do dah peeps that are out there. (I’m going to point out , I’m not drunk or high , but I’m that tired at the moment and had to deal with dog drama today, that it has fried my brain a little bit! ). So having said that I was going to do this to the girls, they wanted to join in and the French man was like, oh well I’ll have some stuff I wont to big up too! So we are doing a  big old family round-up! What we have done is each pick 3 things / blogs / People we are loving and rambled about why we like them, So here goes!

Maîtriser / Boss man

From Daddy’s Desk, with John Brownstone. – A short video from John Brownstone from the Loving BDSM podcast, on why it’s not cool to use silence as away of punishing a submissive. This gent has articulated my thoughts in a much better way than I could have. as I would have said don’t treat you sub as second class citizen, grow up and stop being a dick! Clear , to the point and highlighting that it can do more harm than good.

Wear and Tear, by Molly Moore, for KOTW – Beautiful piece and stunning photo by Molly Moore of Molly’s daily kisses. Good read, but the best part by far is the picture she took of herself. Getting across how arousing knife play and cutting off of clothes can be!

Anxiety and Events, By the princess of kink, for Kinkcraft. – Now I should say that the Kinkcraft Podcast is in my girls top podcast. Bless them , they will all sit at the kitchen table and listen to Andrew and Pixie , then afterwards they will discuss what they had been talking about and each give their take on it. This article really hit a cord with me as mouse suffers so badly with G.A.D. it gave me more ideas of how to help her and also made me look at things from her view point. So Thank you to all involved!

Babe –

Pink hai don’t care!!! Learning to love myself! – A Post from the wonderful Candysnatch, a blogger who has a great outlook on life and is the epitome of body and sex posativatey . I read this article and past it on to are little bear, who has really bad problems with her body image problems. It has given her a real boost and as a knock on effect we have much happier little bear! So Big thank gouges lady!

Drama in the BDSM comunity , Loving BDSM. This one was kind of said what we all want to say about people bringing drama in to a D/s or kink environment. It really was wicked for people to actually say what we thought , but out loud for a change. lol basically the advise is just to deal with it calmly , talk to people, find your on fit , speak up or to someone as needed , and for everyone to just try the hardest to get the fuck a long! Little Pixie loved this on and she giggled the whole way through, so a Big thank you to Kayla and John! x

Hoilday gift guide 2017. By Coffee and Kink. – Really big thanks for this article. I hate Christmas shopping and I never know what to get people , but this is a fucking awesome guided to what is hot for the kinkies in my life!

Kitten –

Bisexuality, episode 48. Proudtobekinky podcast. -so we all love the Proudtobekinky podcast and when we first listen to this one it was kind of light bulb moment for us all! Floss was speaking for not just her but us too! So many myths got busted in this one podcast. Pixie also listen to this with Aunty May , who said ‘That girls got away with words and talks a lot of sense’ . So if she is saying it’s worth a listen it’s worth a listen!

Bitch. – Beatiful picture of an Irish blogger that we are all a little obsessed with! Great use of colour and lighting, positioning and placement. Sends shiver down my spine. Lace – Sinfull Sunday #344, by Little Switch Bitch.

Southern Sir’s Place, By John Brownstone.  – So we are not really allowed to fallow blogs of other dominates unless the boss man knows them in person. But the is a the odd exception , Sir Beasty is one and  rather new one is Mr John Brownstone. His blog is now one of are favourites. The are great post for Sinful Sunday, Kink of the week and about his life! one of the most funny , sweetest and loving Dom that the is around and on the net!

Little Bear

The complete truth about Daddy Doms and little girls , By Kayla Lords , For KinkCraft. – I’m a little and I love being a little , but I some times feel people think I just act like a child and do it for attention. No I do it cos it is part of who I am and allows me to feel happy, safe and loved. This article by Kayla lords sums everything up so well and is right on the money for me. Thank you Mrs Babygirl!

Sinful Sundaysinful Sunday is one of Molly Moore’s memes . Your given a prompt every month and come up with sexy Picture that you feel fits the prompt or any other sexy pic you want to add. I’m not good at taking pics , but I love looking and reading what others come up with!

Submiisve Guidesubmissive guide is a site I love, its full of all things to do with submission and great ideas. with article and ebooks that you can download and keep. We have got the submissive advent Callender and I can’t wait for it to be time to start it!

Mouse –

Torture Garden Special , Floss does life. when I was younger I used to love go to To TG , but after things went pear-shaped for me I stop going and now my anxiety levels are stopping me from going. Read this piece by floss was like being there myself, she made I sound so really. I could almost feel the beat of the music and see all the bright colours. She has really got it spot on and has got me going I have to make it back to TG next year!

How to picth your idea to website, By the smutancer. Great article by Kayla Lords , aka the smutlancer. All about how to pitch ideas to people and companies. Now I have not use this to pitch writing stuff to kinky peeps yet, but I did use the advice and use it in my none kinky life, selling some article and 4 course idea, so it really does work. Pretty much everything on the smutlancer is super helpful and so easy to understand!

Wicked Wednesday, Reblsnotes.com – Wicked Wednesday is one of my fav writing memes on the net! Great prompts weekly and you can write erotica or a little bit about your real life. Love the feedback you get and the support you get!

Podcast we love and thing everyone should give a listen!(even Great Aunty May agrees)

Loving BDSM

Kinkcraft

Proudtobekinky

The Dildorks

Black People Kink

Cousenually Speaking

Off the cuffs

And lastly ….. My great Aunty May wanted this to be included as she thinks it’s the funniest , best written and most relevent Podcast around at the moment, and that all men and women should listen to it! The Guilty Feminist.

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

Ps this was meant to be posted on Saturday, but I was a bit manic , then on sunday all I did was cry and giggle , then last night but I fell asleep again! So it’s posted on a Tuesday!

Question time with the girl….. and ravenhaired_sub.

So up this we have the Stunning hottie that is the Miss Walker or @ravenhaired_sub .A bit of a twitter star, sharing her life with her equaly hot Husband and Daddy , in words and picture that always make us smile! Kinky positive and one of the best role models for DDlg and D/s that we have the pleasure to meet! So here is our Q/a with her…..

1. When did you realise you had a kinky side? (babe) Pretty much a few years into becoming sexually aware, so at least by my mid/late teens.
2. What things make a good submissive? (kitten) I don’t know if there is a “right” answer for this (I think it depends on the dynamic) – but being trustworthy and honest with your Dominant would be what I would expect though.
3. What do you do for none kinky fun? (Mouse) I like to read and I’m pretty much a horror fanatic. Anything gothic or to do with serial killers will get my attention, this could be a book, TV programme or film. I’m also a bit of a foodie so I enjoy dining out.
4. Do you have any guilty pleasures and what are they? (little Bear) I have no guilty pleasures, they are all guilt free!
5. What is your favourite type of music and why? (All) Rock or metal. The musicianship that goes into this genre is second to none.
6. What makes for a perfect date night? (little Bear)  An intimate dinner date, followed by a stroll and good conversation.
7. What are your thoughts on body piercings and tattoos? (Mouse) I’m don’t mind piercing providing it’s not excessive, especially in the face. As far as tattoos go, I would say I love tattoos, but I actually love well done tattoos 😂
8. What are your top 3 sex toys and why? (kitten) 1. The Magic Wand, just the intensity is amazing. 2. Butt plug, instant wetness for me. 3. Nipple/clit clamp, again, just a huge turn on. The pain mixed with pleasure.
9. What does sub space look and feel like to you? (Babe) Sub space to me as a feeling of relaxation, of total calm. Where I am out of my body almost.
10. Have you ever acted out any sexual fantasy and if so what were they? I will be soon but it’s a secret! 🙊
Silly question from little bear.
Where do you stand on stuffies? I love stuffies! My Tsumtsum ones are my faves!
Why does it take so long to get ready for a night out? …Because we have to always looks our best!
What is your favourite fruit? Strawberries
Do you like pop tarts? Never tried them!
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Only a little bit!

Hope you enjoyed reading as much as we did!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.

The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.
I have never really had a great love of what I see when I look in the mirror. I never liked how I looked growing up as a kid. I was small and scrawny as little kid. I had thick glasses, red frizzy hair, thick glasses and a tiny up turned pig nose. Then at the age of 9 need to take steroids for health problems and I put on weight. I was bullied badly at school and at home, by my mother and her father. When I turn 13 a grow about 5 inches in a year and I start to train at a boxing club with my dad. I lost weight, gained muscle and attitude. I chose to fight back at the bullies and the world. but this led to me getting kicked out of school for being a ‘troubled ‘kid.
Fast forward a to a few years ago and you see a girl whose self-esteem is rock bottom, who hides herself away. My body was covered in scares from years of self harm and tattoos from my years of angry rebellion against a harsh world. Stretch mark from rapped weight gain and then weight loss. Add more scares from chest drains from ill health and miss shaped bits from bike accidents and broken bits from my beatings from my ex. So, when my darling Maîtriser came in to my life a few years ago, one of the First things he wanted me to work on was my, in his view titled perception of my body. He said he wanted to me to see myself the way he and the rest of the world saw me, and not how my broken brain saw myself.
So, with therapy, gym workouts and time and love, I started to work on my self-esteem and started to challenge how I saw myself. One of the things I did and still do from time to time is put myself down. I will say something like I hate my face or I’m so fat. This upsets maîtriser, he says it’s like me saying that he is not right that I am worth him loving. At first, I was not sure I was worthy, but as the days went on and I feel increasingly in love and I learned to trust again, I saw that he was right. So, I tried to stop, but I still slipped from time to time.
As a sort of punishment and sort of his way of challenging this, he would for ever put down I made about myself I would have to come up with 10 things I liked about the way I looked. Having just had twins, the put downs have come to the surface again. So, when I said, ‘lord my face looks so chubby’ I was made to stand in front of the mirror again and make my list of 10 things I like, here is what I found
1. I love the colour of my eyes and how they seem to change with my mood.
2. I like my small pug nose and how it’s too small to keep my glasses on when I sneeze.
3. I love my high cheek bones and dimples.
4. I love my Hight. Just right that I can rest my head on maîtriser shoulder when we dance.
5. I love my small hands, that are strong and know how to do so many things.
6. I love my boobs and nipples, and the amazing feeling I get when they are played with.
7. I love the stretch marks on my tummy and hips. Reminds me of caring my babies.
8. I like the scares on rib cage. They remind me of the strength it took to fight back from illness
9. I like the scare on my left for arm. It makes me think that, given time scares fade, if not always leave you totally
10. I love the tan line on my ring finger, reminds me of being married to maîtriser and how special are bond is.
I don’t think I’m ever going to the type of person who is going to spend hours looking in the mirror. But I have learned to like what I see and realised that if maîtriser is happy and loves what he sees, then so should I, cos he is a man who is rarely wrong about stuff like that.

I really loved writing this and I feel like it was something I needed to do, without knowing I did. Does that make sense? I wrote today at a coffee shop, while my little ones dozed in their pram and the rest of the world went about their business. For now my life is good, happy and settled.

Pixie x x x x

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