Well world I have gone and landed myself in trouble , again, big trouble this time 😦 See this week has been massively full om for me. I have been writing courses content, presentation for a 3 day conferences and trying to sort classes out in the UK from the USA. I have been running around trying to be everything to everyone. I have been forgetting to eat at times and not taking naps when I need to. I have put myself down, I have allowed myself to be belittled by people and taken to heart some silly comments from unkind people. So Maîtriser has told me I have to list everything I have done and then the punishment for this and then post it on my blog. So here goes….
- I have not been eating my 3 meals a day and forgetting to have my 3 snacks a day.
- I have put myself down a total of 15 times in a row, even after being given warnings.
- I said I looked fat and that maîtriser is crazy for still wanting me when I’m fat and ugly .
- I pushed Kitten away when she trying to comfort me.
- I forgot to eat before bed on 3 nights, leading to 3 hypo .
- I refused to let Babe drive when I was tired and need her help.
- I grumped at my great Aunty May .
- I forgot to test my blood sugar levels for 3 days.
- I took a Skype call from my Daddy with out someone with me.
- I took an email from my sister to heart, when she had no right to say what she did.
- I refused to take my afternoon naps.
- I took on more work than I could handle and refused help when it was offered.
- I refused help with my chores.
- I said I was fine when I came over faint in the groceries store.
- I went to mass when i was meant to be resting.
My punishment is as fallows. For the next 2 weeks maîtriser we chose what i wear, eat and how i spend all my free time. I am to take an afternoon nap between 3.30 pm and 4.30pm every day. I am to do everything i am told without answering back, if maîtriser is not about to tell me what I should be doing i must ask Babe. i have lost the right to my alone time for the 2 weeks . i am not allowed to speak to my sisters or father without maîtriser for the next 2 weeks. All emails, social media and blog post must be joked by maîtriser, Babe or Sir Beasty. I am to eat 3 times a day, have 3 healthy snacks a day and i must drink 3 litter of fluids a day. I am on a total caffeine ban for the next 2 weeks and i am not to have soda. i must have my phone with me at all times and i must not leave the house without Bella and one of the girls. i am not to go over 100000 steps in one day. i am not allowed to drive for 2 weeks, I must keep my diary and list all sleep, food and bs level in it. all this has been done for my own sake and i must try harder not to break my rules.
Well that’s it! See not all punishments are about spankings and kinky stuff. This for me has really hits me where it hurts , being made to very publicly admit what I have done and how i fucked up is really hard, to have my free time and freedom to answer back is going to be so hard. but i know that it’s done out of love , concern and so i look after myself better.
Pixie x x x x